I did it me ladies!!!! I managed to finish this bloody detox!!!! I will call my holistic tomorrow morning and neeerh neeerh him over the phone!!!! He thought it was not possible for me to sustain this eating for 21 days during the cold days of winter...but hey!!! I fucking did it!!!!!
And I have been mighty rewarded too. Because I got on the scales 5 times already. In 5 minutes. I also called Angelos to see for me, in case I was misreading. Yes my sweets! Roll the drums!!! Today, Sunday January 30, at 7.30 am, I weigh 89.6!!!!! Eighty Nine point Six kilos!!!!!!! That is a 6.2 kilos loss during the detox!!!! Oh I could go out in the balcony and scream it out loud!!!!
I am extemelly happy!!!!! I am also proud and content!!! Because, hey...you know what that means? It means that my blog has the wrong name now!!!! Because I do not have 25 to go!!! I have 19.6 to go!!!!! Do you have any idea how wonderful it is to know you have 19.6 kilos to go, when a few years ago you started by having 60 to go?? Sixty kilos to loose!!! Oh how I wish I had a digital camera now and take a pic of the number in the scales to show you all :)))
I so know I can do it now. And I so know I wouldn't be able to have done it without you all!!! I wouldn't have managed to sustain this without Kimba's virtual hugs! Without DG's sincere "well done's"! Without arlie's compliments! Without Denise's friendship! Withour rebeka's help! Without Lynda's and Leigh's sweet words. Without Angel's support! Without Tracy's energy! Without LBTERA's reminding me all the time that living well is the best revenge! Without Yvonne's sincerity!Without Lee's caring! Without Karen's sweetness!
I am really proud of myself. And I am not holding back on it. I am not embarassed or playing it modest and not saying it! Because during that period back in the holidays, from December 22 to January 1st that I managed to gain the 5.8 kilos I really slipped back. I could not sleep. I was so sad and so worn out with my mother's situation, so discouraged and hurt, that I really slipped back. I became my old bad self. Eating like a maniac, smoking the occasional pot, drinking too much tequila, smoking 3 packs a day!
But it only lasted for so little time. Enough to make me realise I am not woman anymore. Whereas in the past it could go on. Like each and every year since 2001. I would fall during the holidays, and I would use the same old excuses to continue: oh...but if I start a diet now, then I will have to stop on January 7, because it's my brother's nameday! And then on the 18 its Natasha's birthday, and on the 25 its my partner's birthday, and on the 31st its my birthday, and then its Valentine's, and then the Carnival, and then March is full of namedays and birthdays and national holidays! And then April I would resume! And I would gain from 5 to 7 kilos during winter, and would not loose them till it felt that spring was too close, and spring brings summer and summer brings bathin suits!
But not this year! And not only have I taken action towards gaining some weight by loosing it back fast, but I have also cut down on my smoking so much! I smoke 2-3 regular cigarettes in the morning with my coffee, so that I go to the toilette, and then the entire day I smoke 4 - 6 thin cigars, you know the ones in the size of a regular smoke. Which is better than regular smokes because you do not get the nasty chemicals in the paper, since they are rolled in tobacco leaves.
And from February 9, this will be reduced to 2 morning smokes and 3 - 5 cigarillos. And this will go on till March 1, where it will be 2 morning smokes and 2-4 cigarillos.
I got to go get my shower and get dressed for the marathon. I am lookign so forward to it! The day is crspy cold but sunny and I just love me some dry cold with lotsa sun. It is my perfect winter weather! oh...AND!!!!
Sofia and Vangelis who are in Amsterdam since Thursday called us yesterday to tell us that we are soooooo lucky, because the sales end so much earlier this year! They end at February 9, which means that we will be there at the total clearance period. That means sales of 70% to 80% off!!!!!! Same like last year, only that last year we were there from Feb 26 to March 2!!!!!!!
Did you notice I am excited? And happy? And proud? And how blessed I feel for having you and my wonderful man and family and friends and health and a great group of people waiting for me in the marathon? Did you? Because in case you did not, I have to tell you that I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!