Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Day 17
I am feeling better today, thanks to you all and not the scales. They have not being nicer to me. Still the same 91.6, Although yesterdays eating consisted of 4 apples and the salad, with a lot less olive oil, and 2 ryr rusks.

I did many things to cheer me up. First, I tried reminding myself that in 16 days, at 91.6 I managed to loose 4.2 kilos (9.2 lb). This is a lot! Then my doggedness replied that last year in 16 days I had lost 7 kilos (15.4 lb) doing the same thing. I tried to tell her that this is only good news. It only means that my body has a lot less toxins than a year ago. She said "Bah". I told her it is so! In the first days I was going to the toilette 3 - 4 times a day, now I am back to my morning routine. She said "BAH". I stopped trying to persuade her.

Then I wore a pair of trousers I have taken in three times. It is a very beloved pair of cargo pants in a wonderfuly thin denim. The last time I took them to the dress maker to take them in, she was so tired of seeing this pants that she took them in a few centimeters more than she should, so when I took them and tried them on in her shop they almost cut my body in half. I was complaining to her and she said "Shut up, you will loose more weight and bring them again. Now you have something to look forward to wearing when you loose more!" (my dress maker is a dictator but I adore her!) I tried them on yesterday and they fitted perfectly. Which made me clamer but not happier.

Then Angelos was such a sweetheart yesterday. He was chasing me all evening, calling me sexy ass, grabbing certain body parts and saying...ohhhh...yuuuummmyyyy.....you are soooo yuuummmyyyy in a funny tune, which made me laugh but did not make me happier. He then sat me down and talked to me seriously. He went back and told me the story of my achievements in weightloss, in therapy, he said how much I have changed, how proud he is of my doings, how important it is for me to having incorporated exercise in my life, he made me wear the same skirt I wore on Sunday to show me again how much weight I have lost since Amsterdam last year, started naming all my favourite shops there and said that I will shop so much more easily this year.

And I was listening to him, fully aware of how right he was, and yet, it was like a big part of me was just not there. Or was in denial of all the good stuff and had stomped her feet and was hanging from the dredfull 91.6. He understood this I think, because he got up, went to the study, and came back with a white paper and a pen.

And he wrote down in big red numbers:

1999: 71
2001: 130
result: 59 +
2001: 130
2005: 91.6
result: 38.4 -
02.01.05: 95.8
25.01.05: 91.6
result: 4.2 -

END OF SILLY DISCUSSION

lol...he cracked me up, then I had tears because he is just so simply perfect.

Of course, in my mind I could still see 23.01.05 90.5 and 25.01.05 91.6, but I realised that I was simply being a bastardious hysterical creature and erased this from my mind.

I also seriously considered ovulation. Not for the gain. But for my mood. I am really having severe PMS moodiness and it can be it. I told him this and he said that lately, I seem to be more pmsing during ovulation than during my period. Poor man the things he sustains...lol

But he also told me that this is the first winter I have actually lost some weight instead of gaining 5-8 kilos. And this is true. Winter is not a good time for me. March to October is my best, with the bestest months being April to July. Then in November I always loose track, then its the holidays, then its january the birthday month, then its February with so many birthdays and valentine chocolate and the carnival, and thn March I resume. This is what has happened since 2001 I started on this weight loss saga.If it wasn't for the winters, I would have been in the 70's by now.

It is just that I so wanted to be 89 kilos when I step in Amsterdam this year. Because for some peculiar reason only the body knows these 2 kilos seem to go off my lower legs. When I was 89.5 kilos a little tme ago (grrrr now I am getting mad with all the food and alcohol I had during the holidays depression), my boots were zipping so much better and I could wear them with thick woolen tights too! And Amsterdam is boots. And as I was telling him this he was laughing and said...so? Get the boots and wear them easily a couple of weeks after we return!!! Amsterdam is not the end of time you know! Remember how last year you bought stuff that was tight? And remember the joy you had when a few weeks later they were perfect on you? Don't you want to have this feeling again?

I tell you girlfriends, I have gotten me a wise, gorgeous wonderful husband!!!

Now I got to go get dressed and leave for work. In a certainly better mood than last night's. And earlier this morning too!





Posted by Argy at 9:09 am
10 Comments:
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Argy - I have got a man like that too!! Isn't it great to have a man who understands? Your man sounds just lovely. He is right - buy stuff a bit tight in Amsterdam and have the joy of fitting it as you lose more weight!

9:59 am

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I keep forgetting to sign my name!! That was me, Lynda! :)

10:00 am

 
Blogger airlie said...

does angelo have a brother?? no, just kidding. WHat a gorgeous guy though. And don't those statistics just kick you in the butt when you see them written like that. A very wise man you have indeed. And who knows? Amsterdam is quite romantic I've heard. With him chasing you like that maybe you will "burn" off those couple of kilos on those first night there! oops! I'm being naughty again!!!!!

11:32 am

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

your husband is so foxy! and wise too. great combination. just listen to what he said, and take the time to acknowledge that you have achieved so much :)

11:58 am

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

(dg!!!)

PS re your comment today: i am at work so can't update my blog til i get home, typepad won't work here for some reason :)

11:59 am

 
Blogger Tracy said...

Your husband sound like a wonderful person. And he's so handsome too...ah. You totally, 100% suit each other. -My beloved DH makes me wonder sometimes what have I done to deserve him too (in a positive sense ;)) - I can be this whining, cranky cry-baby and he just sees the "knot" behind my mood, un-ties it and finally manages to make me laugh. I still can't understand what his secret is. I just get upset if he's upset...

12:40 pm

 
Blogger Shrinking Girl said...

I know it's tough but we have to train ourselves (somehow!) to focus on how far we have come and not so much on how far we have to go!

8:42 pm

 
Blogger Denise said...

DOES Angelos have a brother? Or an uncle? Or even a grandfather??? What a lovely, lovely man you have, which is as it should be because you are a lovely, lovely girl! :)

11:21 pm

 
Blogger ms ralph said...

Oh what a lovely husband you have. We are both lucky girls because I have one too! But it seems mine has forgotten how big I was. He keeps telling me I wasn't that big, but in doing that he takes away my victory! I have to remind him all the time, but he redeems himself by saying, "but you have always been so beautiful to me." Awww.

12:04 am

 
Blogger kimba said...

'End of Silly Discussion' - oh I love it!!!

Sounds like your Angelos is every bit as wise, gorgeous and wonderful as you - you guys are made for each other ;)

1:07 pm

 

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