Yesterday was even harder. You would think that as the days go by this would become easier, if not easier, at least that I grew accustomed to it and stop cpmplaining. But I was seriously craving yesterday. And if I tell you what I was craving for, you will think I have totally lost it. My mind that is ;p
I was craving for a green salad with balsamic vinegar. I was cutting fresh greens to make Angelos a huge container for salad to last him a few days at work, and as I was cutting each type of green (roman lettuce, kos lettuce, white cabbage, purple cabbage, rocket, fresh spearmint, fresh basil, drill, parsley, shallots, red peppers, green peppers, carrots, green apples, sun dried tomatoes, portobella mushrooms) the smells of them got to me, and I begun drooling over the greens, thinking of how tasty all those different aromas would feel in a mouthful, actually feeling them sleek in my mouth from the olive oil, and then I actually smelled the balsamic vinegar, its sweetness mixed with its acidity, I could feel it in my mouth, tickling my pallete and I was feeling soooo miserable.
Surely I should feel proud for resisting, but I did not. Feel proud I mean. I felt more miserable and this morning I woke up and realised I still feel miserable about it. I was making my coffee in the kitchen and I was staring at the balsamic vinegar bottle all the time, still drooling. I swear, I could have drunk it right from the bottle!
Now, if I was craving pizza, or ice cream, or pitta gyros, or after eights, I wouldn't be worried. This would have been ok. This would have been a normal crave. But yesterday I felt weird. I remebered one time I was trying Atkins, and woke up at 3 am, went to the kitchen, ate 3 oranges, and went straight back to sleep. I was craving fruit so badly when on Atkins - and I am not a big fruit eater during the winter and not too fond of oranges either - that this was more my body aching for it than my mind playing tricks with my diet.
I am going to call my med and go see him the sooner he can fit me in his schedule. Because I do not want to wake up in the middle of the night and go drink that balsamic vinegar straight from the bottle!
And I weighed in this morning and it shows 300 gr more than yesterday. Now how is this going to make me feel good about resisting the green salad with the balsamic vinegar last night is beyond my imagination! I know I am having my period and that is probably my body playing with its fluids, but I still don't know how this is going to make me feel good!
What made me feel good though was your sweet comments! You girls made me blush over and over again! Please stop calling me a greek goddess because I am faaaaaaaaaar from that! I feel good about the 37 kilos I have lost though. Sometimes, when I have a "slim" day, I feel like a million euros. But then, I have many "fat" days that make me feel like the deficit of a million euros...lol
Right, now I got to go get ready for work. And boil my rice. And brocolli and carrots. With no balsamic vinegar still. Not that it goes wrll with brocolli and carrots. But I could still have had balsamic vinegar with ice instead of coffee this morning. I can still smell it each time I type it. B A L S A M I C V I N E G A R. *sigh*