This has been me in general the last couple of months. With a few shinny examples of actually realising my "gonna's", but a few alltogether.
So I decided I am not going to be a Gonna Club Member anymore. The sooner I realise that all I have for sure is the present, the better the future will be. It has to be inserted in my brain. Current choises win the battle. Not future ones. It is all about now. This afternoon. This day. Surely I do not mean to be perfect. Surely perfection is beyond my lead. But I can try. We all can! So, here comes the part I need your help, contribution and commitment, if you want to share this challenge with me.
My mom is checking in the hospital tomorrow for her cystoscopy and biopsy. So from tomorrow till Thursday I will be in the hospital with her. But Friday starts the challenge and I want you with me, if you feel like sharing a little adventure. Here is the scheme.
I will have to write down every day in my little notebook (have I told you I am super excited that Moleskin notebooks have finally reached Greece, so I get to buy them myself and not beg my friends that go abroad to bring me some?!) all the "I'm gonna" thoughts that cross my mind, the ones related to weight loss of course. And I will post them here for a week. And I will have to also post the course of action taken - or not.
Then for this week, I will also do a little training too. The first " gonna " thought that comes to my mind has to be realised instantly. Even for a short amount of time. For instance, if I think "I'm gonna spend some extra time in the treadmill tomorrow" I will have to get up, take the stairs, get out in the street, and walk, even if it is for 5 minutes.
I have yet once felt that I have slowed down with the process. Being perfect 5 days of the week and not-so-perfect-to-totally-blow-it the remaining two does nothing to me but maintaining. I have learned the maintenance trick very well me thinks. There is just one problem. Last night I asked myself, honestly and with sincerity, if this is what I want. Because you have to want something for it to be feasible. So I asked Argyro, while looking at her in the mirror, with just undies on, Darling, is this what you want to maintain for the rest of your life? And she replied, with equal honesty and sincerity, No, I do not want to maintain 90 kilos for the rest of my life. I want to loose 20 kilos and maintain 70 healthy kilos for the rest of my life, 80 at the most during my pregnancy. She told me that she is not "gonna to" from now on. She will just do it!
I trust her to try her best. Do you want to join in the challenge?
Height: 1.68 cm
CW: 86 kg/189.2lbs
GW: 69 kg/151.8lbs
Lost: 44 kg/96.8lbs