Here. This is my list. I offer it to you to comment and critisize and honestly I think that it doesn't matter to me if you think I am a split personality that has gone from totally possitive and uplifting to completely gloomy and nagging all the time. Because, to tell you the total truth, sometimes I feel like one. It is very difficult to wear pink. Here at the office, I have two girls and a trainee who came in last week. I am using all my patience and calmness to them so that they will not freak out more that they already have. I am also taking the remaining of my being human to the couple of hours at the most I am spending with my husband. And all my positivity is aimed at my mom.
I just realise that I might sound a bit upset at the last bit of this post. The truth is I am. I received a couple of emails the last couple of days from people saying I have sort of disappointed them. They said that I was so ful of life and good energy but that lately I am always speaking about how tired I am and such. I was not going to bring this up, but it just flew over the tips of my fingers as I am typing this. I have no intention to apologise. I am going through a very difficult time in my life and if this is not amusing to you, you can always delete the link to this blog. I am taking full responsibility of my situation. I should have estimated things better and refuse a few projects. But since I agreed to take them, I am obliged to run them to the best possible way. So I got myself in this mess, and I am going to have to deal with it. And I will do it. The same way I got myself in a weight of 130 kilos and dealt with it. Still dealing.
Bottomline is, till the end of October, things here will be sporadic, with few updates now and then. These updates will most probably be about the madness I am in right now combined with some effort to follow a routine in my eating. Come back beginning of November for more uplifting stuff. Which will always depend on my mom's cure or lack of.
You ladies that read to this last bit, thank you for your niceness to read all through my venting. You know I love you, don't you?
Height: 1.68 cm
CW: 86 kg/189.2lbs
GW: 69 kg/151.8lbs
Lost: 44 kg/96.8lbs