Sunday, April 03, 2005
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
My husband calls me "skinny" this last week. He tells me all the time I have just lost so much weight. He keeps on saying he is amazed what a great difference 2 kilos down make.
My mom on Friday told me I look 16. She told me she can't even remember how long it has been since the last time I looked so good.
Sofia and Vangelis, on Vangelis birthday on Thursday night, where I went with my salad determined to refuse cake, like I did and felt so proud too, told me that I am a radiant new woman!
You left amazing comments in flickr about the last photos I posted.
Yesterday, I went to a shop to buy a pair of jeans, 2 sizes smaller than my current ones, because I want a pair of jeans that I will look forward to get in - they don't fit yet, they need 3 kilos less or so I think - the salesgirl told me that perhaps I should look at a darker shade of denim as it would be more flattering for my thighs. She meant that my thighs are huge and what the hell was I doing with light blue jeans.
On Thursday, when I went downtown to fetch Vangelis' birthday present, I went to a shop that I visit regularly, because they had a 70% off clearance on last year's summer clothes, I bought a pair of white trousers (for 10 euros yay!!!) and the lady that served me asked me if I'd rather have them on black.
I feel like the two sides of the same token. Head or tales folks? Head is family and friends and people who love me and have known my struggle (though not as well as all of you on the same battle do) and see the results and the difference, and indeed, now that I am 42 kilos smaller, to them I look absolutely gorgeous. And then there are tales too. People who just meet me, salespersons that have never see me before and ask themselves what the hell this woman is thinking of when she buys tank tops or white trousers! Look at those thighs...look at those arms!!! (tis actually where I hide my 88 kilos shauny ;o)
I don't get discouraged by these salespersons. Not anymore. I have done my hard job and I have tried hard to acheive what I have acheived. Noone will make me think less of myself and my achievement. But it just shows the pure truth of this post's title. Beauty lies indeed in the eyes of the beholder. For some I am gorgeous, for others I am the fat woman who acts as if she's not.
For the tables, I am still obese. My BMI at my lowest weight of 88.3 is 31.3. I still have to loose 4.3 kilos to be simply overweight. And I have to loose 18 to be "normal" again.
And the sad part is that when I loose those 18 kilos, I won't actually be normal but in the tables of numbers only. Because of the excess skin, the miles of stretch marks, the cellulite, all these you might very well know.
But back in the january of 2001, when I was looking to the future and knew that I had 60 kilos to loose, when I repeated to myself every single day that it was never going to happen because it was just way too much weight for someone to loose, back then I never thought there would be a moment when I would actually try a pair of white trousers, and would get out of the dressing room asking for a size smaller because what they had given me was too big!
And with or without my loose skin and stretch marks and cellulite, I am closer to the finish line than I have ever been. And this is precious. And this is my doing. And I feel proud to share it with you every day. Because when I reach my goal, there will be this time when I will accidentally meet someone I have not seen in years, and they will have lost SO MUCH on earth did you do it? And I will smile and tell them. "Easily. When I thought I was ready to give up, I started an online blog!"
Thank you!

Posted by Argy at 9:05 am
Blogger Catesa said...

very motivational post, feeling like exercising now :) white pants are nice, next time a salesperson says that you can say something like mmm no, if i wanted black i would have asked for black...
have a wonderful day you ARE beautiful!

1:24 pm

Blogger Tracy said...

I love that old saying that is the topic of this wonderful post - it is so true! And yes - in the latest photoes in flikr, you defenitely look closer to 16 than 36. And that dazzling smile...The salespeople are just dying with envy and they can't hide that! (That's what I always ay to myself when someone shoots me with an anwanted comment :D)

1:37 pm

Blogger Emma said...

Dang and blast it - Argy I have just created a flickr account so I can view your photos. Am I meant to give you my email so you add me or what? Totally confused. Will read back a few posts I think.

I'm torn about the sales assistants. On one hand I want to despise them for poking your nose in, but on the other I think it's really nice that they take an interest and try to help you look your best. You would rarely get that here. Or maybe it's just the shops I frequent. Anyway, they're only doing their jobs. The opinions that are the most important to you, as you well know, are from the people who know your struggles and knew Before Argy.

1:52 pm

Anonymous dietgirl said...

aww lovely post :)

4:07 pm

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Argy - how do we view your pics? I have obviously missed out here.... Well done on the compliments by the way!


11:09 pm

Blogger ms ralph said...

You really shouldn't listen to salespeople. I don't see you on a daily basis, but from what I can see you are just gorgeous. And you have accomplished so much. I think you should be very proud of yourself. And I can see you are.

1:40 am

Anonymous delores said...

I had that salesgirl experience 3 months after having my son she told me this top can't fit after I only asked her the price it hurts still because I could have been getting it for someone else I never shop there again, having aims in life and working towards it is what's its all about...and I am inspired by you.

2:10 am

Anonymous Jules said...

Hi Argy, this is the only way I could find to contact you, tried to find an email but couldn't so here goes: Leigh emailed me 2nd April to pass on the message to you, Lynda, Lyn and Kimba that her Dad passed away 26 hours after they arrived in the phillipines. They are heading back to Aussie this week. Sorry to do this on your tag board.


4:33 am

Blogger a new start said...

Hi, Argy...would love to be added to your flickr pal...I've already got an account...

10:27 am

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi again Argy - I can view Kimbas using the email Does this mean I have an account??


11:16 am

Blogger airlie said...

maybe - you are still doubting yourself a little and the sales people catch that doubt and head into "safe" territory black and slimming. You have come a huge was physically but maybe you need a little more emotional work. I bet when you feel like your journey is finished that you will no longer get those kind of comments.

1:34 pm

Blogger LibrarianOnTheLoose said...

Argy, can I pleez pleez pleez view your flickr? librarian68 at gmail dot com

11:41 pm

Blogger a new start said...

thanks for your email is

looking forward to seeing your transformation...i'm sure it will serve as an inspiration to me on days that i don't want to move...

10:09 am


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I have spent all 36 years of my life loving life itself and this will never change. I am a great lover of the smallest things. I am addicted to smells and I attach them to people and events. It is impossible for me to wake up without ice in my coffee.

Age: 37
Height: 1.68 cm
SW: 130kg/286lbs
CW: 86 kg/189.2lbs
GW: 69 kg/151.8lbs
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