I had never reached 130 kilos? What if I started now? What if I had spent the last british pounds I had in Heathrow airport buying all the different cadbury chocolates I had never seen in my life - just like I did - brought them home, ate them all durig the weekend, woke up this very Monday sick with myself, afraid to get on the scales, and decided its about time to lose some weight?
Would I then start with a fresh approach and a new zest?
We will see....
For your information, the cadburry I scoffed down like a maniac all weekend was:
Fruit 'n' nuts
Oh, and guiness infused milk chocolate truffles!
It is really very stupid of me. I ate so well in Belfast and walked an average of 13,000 steps a day, to come here and destroy it all in a breath.
I'm really nervous to go to the office today. I do not want to work there anymore and yet I know I will stay till june at least, to finish this project. I have worked very hard to put the foundation for it and I do not want someone else take the credit for it.
Yet, thinking about getting up and to the shower to get ready for work makes me want to eat more chocolate.
Angelos went shopping on saturday morning and bought all nice organic ingredients and made his own musli: 3 kinds of oats, wholewheat flakes, almonds, raisins, walnuts. I woke up this morning and he had left me a bowl of this by the bed with the note "just add milk".
Im going to have this for breakfast. If I stick to a diet for more than week, perhaps I will have one area of my life under control and then get some internal satisfaction.
This is what I miss the most lately.Some internal satisfaction!